How do I begin to unpack how deeply disturbed I was by yesterday’s Supreme Court arguments?
Justice Sotomayor spoke for so many of us with this question. She spoke for me.
In September, I had a miscarriage requiring an emergency abortion procedure —
(tw // miscarriage)
Justice Sotomayor spoke for so many of us with this question. She spoke for me.
In September, I had a miscarriage requiring an emergency abortion procedure —
(tw // miscarriage)
https://twitter.com/ProfMMurray/status/1466066984869765127
I was making lunch at my kitchen counter when I began to feel severe cramping, accompanied by heavy bleeding. I knew something wasn’t right. I took Advil, and hoped it would resolve itself — it didn’t.
So I called my doctor, who presented to me a number of possible causes —
So I called my doctor, who presented to me a number of possible causes —
I’m 44 years old. I had just finished weaning my youngest daughter from breastfeeding, & my body was experiencing hormonal changes. She said it could just be a hormonal imbalance, or it could be fibroids, endometriosis, or perimenopause.
But my doctor said the most important thing was to put a stop to the heavy bleeding—because if it didn’t stop, I would have to go to the emergency room.
She prescribed me 800mg of Advil, & 3 birth control pills to take all at once.
And that did, initially, stem the bleeding.
She prescribed me 800mg of Advil, & 3 birth control pills to take all at once.
And that did, initially, stem the bleeding.
It didn’t last. By the next morning, my condition worsened. And when I found myself doubled over & barely able to walk as I struggled to get my daughter ready for school, I knew it was serious.
My healthcare provider was able to get me into the doctor that morning. After an examination, ultrasound & pregnancy test, she told me “You’re pregnant. You’re miscarrying. And you need a D&C (an emergency abortion procedure) now.”
It was hard to process what I was being told – it happened w/dizzying speed. Learning I was pregnant. Learning that the pregnancy was no longer viable. And learning that I needed an emergency abortion.
The way the doctor explained it, there wasn’t any decision to be made. The choice was clear: I needed to undergo this procedure as a matter of healthcare. It wasn't a difficult call, because there was no call to be made.
Did that make it easier? It did.
But it didn't keep me from experiencing such an intense range of emotions, all at once, not to mention the physical pain I was experiencing.
And this all happened the week we learned about Texas’ extreme abortion ban—it was very front of mind.
But it didn't keep me from experiencing such an intense range of emotions, all at once, not to mention the physical pain I was experiencing.
And this all happened the week we learned about Texas’ extreme abortion ban—it was very front of mind.
During this medically necessary abortion, for a pregnancy I had literally just learned about, I asked if my procedure would have been off the table under Texas’ abortion ban.
The doctor said, given access issues, it could be very difficult.
The doctor said, given access issues, it could be very difficult.
Under Texas’ abortion ban, my specific abortion would have *technically* been permitted since my pregnancy was no longer viable. But in practical terms, ACCESS to this healthcare would have been my barrier —
Texas’ law makes accessing any procedure so incredibly difficult because of its impact on abortion providers’ ability to even operate in the state.
These bills banning abortions & restricting access to care are creating a culture of fear and confusion—& that’s by design. To make people uncertain about what kind of care is available to them, and how they can access it. And to make women scared to even ask about their options.
Think about the cruelty involved in making it your aim to make life more difficult for someone in that situation: in great pain, bleeding profusely, barely able to walk, confused about what’s happening to them, unsure about where to go —
And then forcing them to endure multi-state drives, or frantic rushes to the airport for the next flight to a state where getting the medically necessary healthcare they need is still *legal* & *available*. And that’s assuming they have the privilege & means to get those options.
Thankfully, here in the East Bay, all it took for me to access the care I needed was a short drive to my healthcare provider. I was able to get timely access & attention for what was a painful medical emergency.
But if I were in a state where providers are closing down – even though my situation would have *technically* been allowed, finding timely access could have jeopardized my health.
For women in states where our freedoms may be pulled back, getting that medically necessary care wouldn’t just be a question of timing & withstanding pain — it could be impossible. It would mean enduring a medical emergency w/out the care they need. It could be life-threatening.
When we read stories about these new attempts to ban abortions — when the Supreme Court was arguing the very existence of Roe v. Wade yesterday — the conversations are often abstract. The questions posed, and situations considered, usually theoretical.
But real lives are at stake. And *that’s* why listening to yesterday’s Supreme Court proceedings was so deeply disturbing to so many of us.
So, when Justice Sotomayor asked “When does the life of a woman and putting her at risk enter the calculus?” – she was asking for me. She was asking for my daughters. She was asking for millions of people in America.
It’s *our* freedoms that are being openly discussed. It’s *our* ability to access the healthcare that we need that’s in jeopardy. It’s *our* lives that are, literally, at stake
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